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圣诞啊~

17 Dec, 2009

09:54

Thursday

圣诞节将近.

回想一下 原来从我有记忆以来

我没有过个像样的圣诞

为何我如此的悲哀啊?? ==

看来第19次的圣诞

也是一个人渡过?

要不然就是和无法融入的表兄弟姐妹渡过?

那我宁愿一个人啊~~

别说圣诞了

我连自己18岁的生日当天

都这样草草渡过

只是住宿的朋友在我生日前一天

帮我庆祝了

那就这样吧~~

btw

`guy, i bet you are already forgot what you had said and gonna be busy for whole night huh~ `

END

10:04

bored,

14 Dec, 2009

22:41

Monday

I'm getting so bored after the exam.

Didn't want to touch the books recently.

Didn't want to go out too.

I'm really very choosy.

I only go out with the person i want to.

LOL.

But the person i want to go with is not asking me.

Well. haha. we are not finding each other also la.

Whatever.

I feel like running away from this place.

I feel like cut off the contacts to everyone in Miri.

Someone I hate is there.

I shouldn't go back to Miri.

But i miss my sister and niece.

I love them too.

and yea.

i think i miss him.

i think i like him.

but.

we are not moving on.

i don't dare to text him.

i don't dare to find him.

he is not finding me too.

hais.

forget about this.

hahaha!

END
23:09

so now.

14 Dec,2009
00:21
Monday

i think im gonna fail my exam. result will release on FEB 22,2010.
very 'pekcek' after the exam.
so i'm not gonna talk about it.
and, I MUST pass it on the next exam.

and yea. after the exam, i'm very upset not just because of the exam.
i feel lonely again.
i feel disappointment.

and
`guy, you are acting too cool. real cool..
but this prove that we are better to be friend.`

then what?
single life is not good at all if you have no friends around you.

i really don't like to be in Klang here.
First, no friends.
Second, i'm not close with cousins here. no common topics. different thinking. i'm matured thoughts compare to them i guess.
Third, no freedom.
Fourth, i'm under surveillance.

`my heart broke into pieces and turn into dust because of that sucky irresponsibility person.`

`the sucky person is annoying me because i'm too suck already.`

`is my fault that i overestimate myself that i could let go easily.`

`maybe you leave silently is a best way for us?`



END
00:47

GOODLUCK!

Friday

08 11 am

Dec 11, 2009

My exam is coming real soon in 7.75 hours.

and i didn't know that how i gonna do the exam later.

I couldn't concentrate on a 100% theories paper.

i didn't think that i'm working hard on it. but i do try my very best (guess so?).
coz..

It has been years.. or maybe since the 2nd year of Secondary,

I didn't truly study the theories part of Commercial Studies and POA.

alws blank the theories part, and everything depend on the calculation part.
i did this on my CAT-T6 paper in this June09 too, 20 marks gone like that, because i totally concentrated on the calculation parts, and gave up the theories reading. thn i only got 67 like that? TMD.
i could have get above 75% if it was a calculation questions. who to blame? ME~ @#$%!
hahaha! pathetic!

Hate theories. lol.

reading and writing stories are so much differences with reading a non-stories paragraphs.

hais.

and then this is what am i now.

suffering of the theories paper.

Exam is on 3pm - 5pm, 2 hours writing paper, held in Sunway College University.

and very very very shitty that my tummy is not feeling well right now.

mc week... shit. tmd. !@#$%

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guy,
i wanna be with you. lol.






wtf~

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